Help Fix the Broken

This morning, or maybe sometime during the thunderstorm overnight, I woke up to what I believe is God’s calling.  I wish I could remember now exactly what I “heard.”  Several of my friends who have gone into ministry often speak of when they felt a calling into ministry.  It felt a lot like that.  I feel like I’m being called, but I’m not quite sure of the path He’s calling me into.  I started praying right away saying, “Are you sure Lord?  I’m all for it, I want to follow your path, but you’re going to have to be real clear on this one. I don’t know where to begin let alone what direction to go.  Lord, lead me even push me because I’m going to need a whole lot of guidance if this is the direction you want for me and I sure can’t do it alone.”  I must have drifted back to sleep after that. I woke up with the phrase, “Help fix the broken” on my heart.  It just kept repeating through my head.  I get K-love’s encouraging word of the day delivered to my email and I try to make it a habit to read that before my feet hit the floor in the morning.  Today’s scripture was Ephesians 2:10:

“For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.”

As I was getting dressed, my oldest daughter started reading a poem I wrote for her when she was a baby. I remember when I wrote it, I thought it would be a great children’s book. It’s a poem for her about my mom who passed away several years before she was born. I vowed when she passed that my children would still know her through me.  I probably struggle with mourning my mom most when it comes to my children and them never getting to meet their Grandma Connie.  There are several areas of my life that I’ve felt drawn to write about because maybe, just maybe that’s my route to touch someone’s life.  I don’t know if that’s the direction God’s leading me… But it’s an idea to start with.  I’m broken, I think we all struggle with brokenness in some shape or form.  God can’t strengthen or rebuild something that hasn’t first been broken.